Shalom God,
I'm angry. I know it's okay to be angry but it tears me up inside. Anger is one of those emotions that blocks out all that's good and beautiful in Your world. It blinds me to the blessing, the richness and the complexities of my relationships and focuses me on only the pain.
You've taught me that my yetzer hara, my evil, or in this case, angry inclination is not something to be afraid of. You've taught me that in recognizing my yetzer hara - I can discover the ability to transform that painful passion into love and goodness. I know that if I can harness the energy I put into my yetzer hara I can transform it and apply it to my yetzer tov, my good inclination.
But it's hard.
God, give me the strength and the patience to make that transformation. Help me to remember that anger passes and that healing and peace are only hidden underneath. Help me to let go of my frustrations, my silly hurts and my pain and find Your love, Your hope and Your peace. Help me God, find You.
Laila Tov,
David
Perfect words. Being angry is suffocating and blinding. Blinding and binding. And behind the anger, I think, for me and maybe others too, is so much fear--- fear of loss. Maybe being angry is easier than being afraid. Daniel is doing better today-- not eating but no fever through the night. Thank you again for your call. Daniel loved that you sent an RD hug his way.
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